DJ Enuff-Kid Cudi Asher Roth Freestyle on ALISTRADIO.NET Part 2

Asher Roth Snaps on this freestyle!!!

Asher Roth: Chillionaire (A Millie Remix)

Asher Roth is pretty dope. They consider him "the next eminem". Album drops on 4/20

Common Ft. Kanye West The Food (Instrumentals)

Here's a beat always nice to listen to... =]

Like I said, I miss the good old Kanye.

Beanie Sigel - The Truth (Produced by Kanye West)

Does anybody remember when Kanye West used to make some REAL DOPE BEATS??? Here's an example of when he USED TO come with it HARD! I miss the good old college dropout kanye.

Method Man Freestyle

METHOD MAN STILL GOT THE SKILLS!!!!

Joe Budden - Nobody Loves Me (Instrumental)

Joe buddens has great taste in picking out beats to rap on...scope this one out.

Joe Budden - 4 Walls (Instrumental)

Here's a dope beat I came accross. =]

The Heatmakerz - Smack DVD Beat (Instrumental)

Here's a nice little instrumental to hangout to. =] Feelin' good wakin' up.

125 Part 4 (Finale)

One of my favorite songs for all time.

Mos Def is funny when it comes to politics...lol.

"He just got the job! It's March!" ... LOL.

Here's a dope beat by dj Jehfree

Pope Condoms Say "No"

Just "don't" do it.

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Good-Bye XP. Hello Windows 7

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Stewie - The List ***Scene From Family Guy Banned From TV***

Scene From Family Guy Banned From TV

Joe Budden - I Couldn't Help It :: Padded Room Amalgam Digital

I couldn't help it....

Maino- Haters Freestyle (Official Video)

I plan on getting some swag on my flow like this.. Something i'm working on my style. Maino doing his thing.

Vote Earth for Earth Hour 2009

Gang Starr - Above the Clouds

Above the clouds, where the sounds are original

Dilated Peoples - Worst Comes To Worst

"When worst comes to worst, my peoples come first."

Rick Ross - Valley Of Death [Official Music Video]50 Cent Diss

DOPE BEAT!!!

Kanye West forgets lyrics to "Good Life" (twice) @ SXSW

Show's he's not the same kanye now as he was before. Although also shows he's focused on new material but...for fans...that's not too fun.

The Brilliant Scientist Who Rejects Global Warming asProblem

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Nintendo Sells 100M DS's - Fastest Selling Console Ever!

As of March 21, 2009, everyone's favourite handheld surpassed a major milestone when the Nintendo DS sold its 100 millionth unit after only 225 weeks on sale. This makes it the fastest to 100 million than any other console or handheld.

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How to lose friends and alienate countries

Apparantly this is what Tom Green was pissed off about...them making fun of Canadian Military. It's pretty messed up they would mock another country

Tom Green Outraged By the Fox News' Red Eye Show Insults (March 24th, 2009)

Tom green snaps about fox news. Swears like a crazy man.

Slaughterhouse (Joell Ortiz, Joe Budden, Royce Da 5'9" & Crooked I) - Move On

Big Sean SXSW Freestyle

This dudes freestyle aint bad. "They gon' try to shoot yah from the neck up like an id."

Vick released from Prison - BREAKING NEWS

Wow...That was fast.

Obama Hits the AIG Spot: Supernews

Lol, this is pretty funny.

Vuze Integrates with iTunes, Xbox 360 and PS3

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You Want to Tax What? Government Gets Desperate

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Rihanna will testify against Chris Brown

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OnLive's Game Streaming Is Trouble for Consoles & Upgrades

Imagine playing bleeding edge games, yet never again upgrading your hardware. That's the ambitious goal of OnLive's Internet delivered gaming service. OnLive presents the concept of Gaming In The Internet Cloud.

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LeBron is closing in on Michael Jordan's 'untouchable' mark

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Barack Obama On 60 Minutes (Full Interview) [3-22-09]

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Obama Sides With RIAA, Supports $150,000 Fines/Music Track

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FAMOUS - Ain't No Use (Official Music Video)

Here's a new track I came accross....THIS DUDE IS DOPE!!! Hell yeah, a new era of rap is emerging. Theres Charles Hamilton, Asher Roth, Wale, this dude FAMOUS. I can't wait for this new generation of rap to take over. BRINGIN' IT BACK!!!

The Famous Freestyle On The Real Frequency Show

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iPhone OS 3.0 & Medical Devices

I would totally get the blood sugar tester for the iphone.

"Jesus Phone 3.0" touches diabetic blogger

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The Steven Seagal Movie Title Flowchart

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Lil Wayne Playing "Prom Queen" On His Guitar In His Studio Room!

Kings Of Leon - Use Somebody

J. Cole (Jay-Z's First Roc Nation Signed Artist) Actin A Fool With The T-Pain Autotune Effect In The Booth!

Shhh by Donora

This song is pretty tight Kimi...thanks. =]

Asher Roth - Lark On My Go-Kart [Cartoon Version]

Asher Roth is mad dope!

A Change Gonna Come

I'm looking for a rapper with down to earth lyrics and lyrical content. I have enough beats to produce a full album. My beats aren't necessarily fit for the "hard as hell" or "gangsta" rapper. I'm looking for some good REAL lyrics that can reach the attention of dudes that just like good music but don't necessarily fit the stereotype of being hard as hell, or selling drugs. Don't get me wrong, having swag is fun and all but, I want to work with a rapper that really has something to say outside of the "cliche" and/or "fad".

If you like what you hear, hit me up at my e-mail address.

djahto@gmail.com

Also visit my website at www.EssayBeats.com

Colin Munroe - I'm Fine (Instrumental)

Here's a beat that I really like. I might do a little rappin' over it later on when I get inspired to write somethin' with this vibe. Peep it and hope you enjoy it as well. www.EssayBeats.com

Charles Hamilton - Loser

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!

REMINDS ME OF THIS PAST WINTER WITHOUT A DOUBT!!!

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Zero Punctuation - 50 Cent: Blood On The Sand

Yahtzee plays Fiddy in the latest update of ZP.

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Zero Punctuation: 50 Cent: Blood on the Sand

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iPhone 3.0 OS Guide: Everything You Need to Know

iPhone 3.0 OS, the next generation operating system for the iPhone, iPod touch, and whatever Apple device comes next. Here you will find all the information you need, updated in real time as it's unveiled.

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I'm looking for a ticket for this event...

This event for this friday.


I found out all late that armin van buuren was coming to chicago this friday.


If anyone can help me get a ticket I would greatly appreciate it.


1 ticket is all i'm really looking for.

How to win Twitter followers and influence people

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Brutha - She's Gone

Little Jinder - Polyhedron (SUPRA1 Remix)

This producer SNAPPPED!!!!!!!!!!

Check it out!!!

Aint No sunshine...

I decided to mess with the sample a little bit. It's a work in progress as you guys can hear.

Just thought i'd post it up.

-E

Aint No Sunshine.mp3 - Essay

Michael Eric Dyson Schools Andrew Breitbart On Bill Maher Show!

20 useful websites for job searching

Unemployment numbers are sky high and rising, fortunately though there are lots of great online resources to help job seekers find work.

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Essay - I really really liked you

I Really Really LIked YOu - Essay

Ok, Where do I begin?
Talkin' on the phone, through the night till the end?
Hearing your voice, had my soul feelin' cleansed
Fallin' asleep with the phone on my chin
And it goes on for weeks, goes on for days.
This feels so good it aint ever feelin' lame,
Her mama said "he dont ever wanna go away."
First girl for whom i went and bought a bouquet
When it comes to me, what you see is what you get
Honesty from me, the quality is the best
Now i do have a side, where i'm laughin' all the time
Can't always be pissed, back trackin' all the time
It's going so good, you can't beat this feelin'
I was serious when I said i'd get a million
Of roses for you, work hard to make it true,
Too bad your temper makes it hard to see it through.
Being with you, nothing else mattered,
I thought you was sexy, even in pajamas
You made me smile, You made me laugh
Didn't even care you was takin' all my hats
Now you wasn't hittin up your bed time,
I understood the phone time would become less time
Instead of callin' by phone, I hitte up the text
And we all know, that became a fuckin' mess
We used to hangout a few times a week,
Tick, tick, tick...Now we barely fuckin' speak.
I did one move and it was pretty mean,
I apologized and that it really came from me.
I understand, everyone makes mistake,
but how many mistakes does it take to push away?
First you said the words "Sad and Pathetic."
THAT, I pushed aside, ignored, and just left it.
I'd never mind, drivin' all the miles
Since losing my job, haven't smiled in a while.
My smile was yours, I missed you of course,
Textin', to you, all o' sudden became a chore.
I didn't know textin' you through the day was a sin,
Just think back to how this begins.
Heres the turning point, where it becomes sad,
I say one joke, gets you so mad
It wasn't even serious, straight hypothetical,
It crosses my mind, i think I should let it go.
But then I said, hmmm, ok, it's a bad joke
So we talk it out, but things are mad slow.
Moving on forward to a future date,
You're telling me, not asking me, I'M GONNA PAY.
I think of you, I never think of money.
I just wanna be with you, that's what makes it funny.
But now you're saying THIS, I dont wanna do that,
Why did our relationship fall of the tracks?
Ok so we argue, time passes by,
We somehow work it out, before goodnight.
...So i decide to go
...Realize, it's all just a show?
I'm havin' more fun with her friends,
Yep, I realize tonight it's gonna end
It ends like that, in just 4 weeks,
Not a kiss on the lips, but a kiss on the cheek.
The thing that really hurt the most,
My valentines day gift to her, became a joke.
That's the moment my heart really parted,
She called my gift garbage.
Can't believe I offered soup when she was sick?
I thought my girl was legit?
But it's cool, she'll find the right guy,
Maybe we just rushed it, not the right time.

Coming Soon...

I'm gonna let it all out about how I feel on this track...

Here's the instrumental i'm working with...



I haven't made this much good music in a row in years! So lyrically i'm gonna throw it down.

Heads up on me letting it all out.

-E

Thought this was funny...lol.

That hurt...

Something that took time to search and show that you really cared, With flowers but Garbage was the last words declared.

Cassie & Puff Daddy In The Studio Mixing "Must Be Love"

I'm going crazy and I dont know what i'm fightin' for,
Seeing to easy to run from this, and my mind sayin' "i can't really fuck with this"
Try to resist...



Here's the track crystal clear...

Some Guy Gives His Opinion On Why Theirs Hate Towards Black Men

This guy is pretty frustrated...lol.

The Obama Deception [Complete 2 Hour Documentary]

Asher Roth Freestyle On Radio 1

4 Most Expensive Mistakes in The Gaming Industry

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Forrest Gump in One Minute

Like is like a box of chocolates..that you can eat in one minute

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Kobe Bryant and Ron Artest Trash Talking Gets Serious

Friendship out the window? Well maybe not, but the trash talking was hard and fast.

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iPhone OS 3.0 coming March 17th!

We just got the announcement. Set your clocks, mark your calendars. It's going down March 17th.

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The McLobster Sandwich and other McMenu Madness

For those that dare eat at McDonald's, what food are you missing out on because you're in the wrong location? From Spaghetti to bizarre burgers, McDonald's has it all. Just not everywhere.

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The 10 Most Controversial 'South Park' Episodes (Videos)

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Atmosphere - The Number One

Dedicated to her...

Bobby Womack - Close To You

but I know a change gonna come

Music inspires me so much...scope out this song.

-E

"A Change Is Gonna Come"

Essay - Party Song (Incomplete)

Ok cool, It's Friday night,
Been wantin' to go out since Monday night.
Lookin' so fresh and lookin' alright
Dont start no trouble, Dont start no fights.

Grab your cell phone and clear the textes
F*** the drama, and F*** the Exes
If you wanna f*** tonight does that make you sexist?
What's the reason girls show off their breastes

Ok cool, call your weekend peeps in,
Everybody knows you wanna drink this weekend.
Who gives a f*** if you're feelin' freaky
Everybody else holdin' cups is also drinkin'

Ok dont get too excited
Who wants to be designated driver?
The things friends say, is oh so priceless
And after we drink, sober up, with sliders.

Sean Puff Daddy Combs: Once Upon A Time In America

Heltah Skeltah Freestyle - The Brokest Rappers You Know

SICK ASS FLOW!!! CHECK IT!!!

Termanology A-List Radio Freestyle

LISTEN TO THE SECOND HALF OF HIS FREESTYLE...IT'S SICK!!!

Timing on some things...lol.

I'm just chillin' right now listening to some instrumentals.

Trying to see if I feel inspired to write anything to a beat I come accross.

Well,

I haven't heard back from any of the jobs I have applied to. I do expect a phone interview from the unemployment office tomorrow, although since I was "discharged" it's not completely known whether or not I qualify for unemployment.

I hope it goes well though, I could use the income (even if minimal) until I find my next job.

Today is pretty funny because today is a day where I felt like talking to my girl for a bit when she got off work today, by giving her a call. And she texts me a bit before she gets off work sayin' how she's been getting calls already and knows she's gonna be on the phone for a long time.

Nice timing huh? So I guess no callin' her today on my end. I tend to have badluck with that as it is anyway so, meh.

Moving on...(no reason to dwell on that, it's whatever)

Oh yeah, I've been catching myself listening to the new Joe budden album. It's dope. Cop it if you can. Also I read up that Saigon is gonna be releasing an album under the same distribution in a couple of weeks. That album should be just as dope as Joe's. So it's a good month for hip hop.

I've been on a drought of material to write lyrics to. I was all hyped up at the beginning then bam..RAN OUT OF TOPICS...lol. Or at least the emotion to want to write on topics.

I wrote a little something to Hi-Tek's beat the other day but couldn't finish it. I got no response about it from the person that it was written for...lol (not letting her know it was about her) so, I guess it's never gonna be finished or just plain wack? If she said nothing then it must not mean much right?

Here's the instrumental...



She didn't like the beat neither...lol. I'm tellin' you, E got some timing lately huh?

Here's the lyrics I wrote so far...

...I dont want nobody else
I only think of you, when I think of myself
It's like drinking from the top shelf
It's that good shit, you dont even wanna sell

You come around, I got no frown
I walk the ground, I love your sound
I'll drive the miles, It's worth the smile
Combine the smiles, the love just piles

That's how it be when it comes to us,
So little time, and so much fun.

-E

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Fight Night Round 4

Joe Budden - Exxes

Cop the new Joe Budden album. Dude does not disappoint. I rarely catch myself purchasing an album the past few years but this is one that I definitely paid for.

It's a good blend of hip hop that I like (the honest and humble kind), mixed with some dope lyrics.

Available at www.AmalgamDigital.com

Terrell Owns Signs WIth The Buffalo Bills For A $6.5 Million / 1 Year Contract

Funny that they only trust him for one year. LOL

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Stop the nom, make a friend.

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Serius Jones still got it...

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Had a Good night tonight...

Enjoy the following instrumental on this youtube video that by sound really portrays my mood and feeling of clarity and knowledge of being wrong sometimes. It's a good listen while you read such a long post. LOL



Well I realized it was one big mistake to post things without addressing them directly with the person first.

For that I apologized to Nina tonight when we had some alone time at the end of the night. I felt bad that I actually got her upset at the expense of me missing someone (her) for the first time (I don't even miss my own family when they're out of town, messed up I know but it's something I've never been able to do since I was a child) and not really knowing how to react and posting a quote that offended her by it talking about options and priorities, and me being an option possibly.

Very childish on my part and I'm happy that she was willing to understand that I was sorry and wouldn't act like that again and recognize why it was wrong in the first place.

I think the honest truth about it is that, a dude like myself that has endured a pretty dramatic past with women...and with her I went in a "this is too good to be true" state of mind in which I was thinking that possibly I don't deserve to be happy and find someone that truly cares about me and vice versa? Kind of like a "why would a girl as kickass like her dig me, instead of someone better?" (I can't be doing that to myself cause it's a total MINDFUCK that I'm creating for myself thus why I made a predicament in the first place...lol) I guess me posting that comment was my retaliation for me feeling that she was tired of me all week considering that I know she's smart, pretty, and a decent person.

Her reason for not speaking to me as much all week is a valid one, and family related which in turn made me feel like shit when she told me because I knew about it ahead of time and didn't take it into consideration at all. Thus why she got offended because essentially I was pissed about a family scenario in a way (indirectly but, it was related in that sense)

I was dumb for pushing that aside and giving in to my "this is too good to be true" mentality and posting the quote. PRETTY WACK RIGHT? STUPID, I KNOW!!!

When I posted I thought if I post something like that, if she don't care it wont make a difference. If she does care, she'll be like "wtf" at the most right?

I WAS VERY WRONG. I shouldn't have done that in the first place and my stupidity got me to feel like crap for making the girl I care about feel like crap because of my "words" (I put it quotations cause it was words I typed but, you know it was just a bad choice of words to post on a blog or myspace or facebook.)

But I'm glad we were able to work it out.

It's funny because, one of my exes used to tell me "I want to argue with you so that I can know how much I truly care about you!!!."

Her saying that all the time always baffled me, and I never provided her with such incentive to get pissed at me. I'm a pretty chill and mellow dude. If anything we just faded away because there was no "spark" in there per say. But for a long time I would still be like "why the hell would someone WANT the first argument to happen, and furthermore, INSTIGATE IT kinda by saying "I want to argue so that I can see how much care there is"

Ironically, I come across a great girl now (Nina), and I somehow create a scenario for us to argue? What the fuck am I doing? That's not my normal self and would never do something like that. Now the part that had me feel like crap is that the intention was not there for me to hurt her feelings. I read that quote, it hit me, and I posted it without much thought (obviously not much thought) at all.

The weird part though that after speaking to her about it that same day (she still wasn't too happy, but was a bit over it), and her still wanting me to go out with her and her friends regardless of her still being pissed at me showed me why someone would WEIRDLY look forward to the first argument. When you argue or have a conflict and are willing to work through challenges, you figure out a side of a person that you wouldn't see otherwise.

Her decision could have easily been "fuck him, he's a jerkface, I can find better, No more talking to E." But she didn't. That stands out to me more than her accepting my apology when I told her I was sorry and would make sure I wouldn't do something like that again without addressing it to her directly first...

You see a side of the person in which you WILL WITHOUT A DOUBT encounter throughout the relationship MORE THAN ONCE. If you can't tolerate the first argument, what would make you want to tolerate any future arguments? Arguments or "bumping of heads" per say will occur in ANY relationship and are inevitable.

Now of course you have to take into consideration the fact that the topic of the argument is a HUUUUUUUUUUGE factor. But what i'm referring to is, the first argument (which is usually, and purely situational, but mostly relatively small)

I guess the first argument is like the first hurdle in the race. If you both don't help each other back up, and are not willing to compromise at all then there's no real basis for a solid relationship right?

I know reading this it can be like "damn, E is just really going deep, and about a quote posted on his myspace, facebook and website?" but the way I see it, there is something to learn from everything. From the good and the bad. Life is about learning from every second.

I made a mistake, this was obviously a bad that I learned from and will make sure of it to avoid it happening again.

I'm happy that she was very understanding and was able to accept my apology after all.

So now that, I have posted the recap of the apologizing and why I felt the need to apologize and what I have learned I would like to say I had a blast with her as usual.

Prior to speaking about it, we had a good night hanging out with her friends. The funny thing is that I really can't stop myself from looking at her all the time. LOL. It was a bit on the obvious side. Her mom calls me "the one that doesn't want to leave." which I never do when I'm with her.

Putting the bad encounter aside, I had a blast tonight.

Thanks Nina! :)

-E

IT'S OFFICIAL...I think she's the hottest chick in Hollywood!!!

BAM!!! GETS HOMEBOY GOOD!!!

Damn, Chris Brown is an A-hole!!!

Colin Munroe - Piano Lessons feat. Joell Ortiz

I'm sorry ( just a man)

I guess the title says it all huh? LOL

I want to make it Easy...

Communication is the most important thing to me.

Charles Hamilton sampled it best!!!

Deepest Thoughts (Snippet) - Charles Hamilton

Alot of shit going through my head...

There's alot of stupid thoughts crossing my mind.

Things I shouldn't be thinking about like, second guessing things without much reason to second guess them.

I guess that can be considered a negative, a guy that thinks too much about the things he cares about?

Either way, I felt like venting and as yall know, i vent through music.

So here's a beat I made to vent out how I feel. The way I assembled these guitars was a bit "sloppy" per say, which portrays how i'm feeling. One moment it's clear and good, the next moment it's like...what the? LOL

Take a listen.

CLICK PLAY ON THE TRACK BELOW THIS TEXT. =]

Venting - Essay

Atmosphere - Wild Wild Horses

I dunno. I'm really feelin' this track right now. Atmosphere is the man.

"My smile was yours"



[Chorus]
Everything is all I have to give you
And I'm afraid it ain't enough
And you're not so young that you believe me
Just because I say it's love
And even if they come to steal you tomorrow
I'll know my smile was yours
Go ahead and chase your dreams and your freedom
Run, run wild wild horses
You can't tame these horses
You can't tame these horses, no
You can't tame these horses
You can't tame these horses

Ice Cube - It was a good day

I woke up today in a good mood. Thinking positive on things. I definitely gotta play this song.

World of Warcraft: The 'crack cocaine' of gaming

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World of Warcraft: The 'crack cocaine' of gaming

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Michael Jackson's newest songs released after his death

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Jurassic 5 feat. Mya - Thin Line

Here's a song that I ALWAYS LOVE!!! This track is a representation of how hip hop can be about shit that people actually go through. Throwback Jurassic 5 song.

"maybe i should spill all my guts. Or write a letter, then tear it up. I'll do a song, just to say whatsup I want....JUST....A TOUCH...."

LOL, I can relate to this guy back in 2005/2006

Some girls can be jealous over the wrong things...

Pepsi Mic Smash: Busta Rhymes, Jadakiss, Jim Jones, Jay Rock & Raekwon

Considering it's a song for Pepsi, to be honest, it's not that bad of a song...

3.2.2009 - Thoughts at the moment...

Whatup Everyone. (Not that many people since I've only gotten 35 hits since the 21st...lol)

Although this is my personal online spot. Beats, rhymes, and articles that are related to things I like.

On the topic of things I like. I have a new girlfriend (Nina). To be completely honest, there couldn't be a better time for her to come in my life. I'm having some wack times in my life at the moment. Seems like in my recent past, I focused so much one one aspect of my life (work) that, I had forgotten the things that used to make me happy. She is a reminder of how I can be happy in this life. Even if just for the moments I'm by her side, or thinking of her. No worries, no expectations, just being myself without judgment and no drama. Just Clarity that 2 people enjoy being with each other.

Now one thing that some people know me whom are close is that, I tend to drink during my rough times, and drink hard. The circumstances I'm currently in, is definitely a time in my life in which my mind says "Go get drunk E, things are wack! You should have some fun the good old fashioned way." My mind can sometimes be my Favorite Nightmare.

Thinking back on some of the "good times", it makes me think of that song. "The good times are killing me" by Modest Mouse. Whenever I was reaching for that "Fun" in the past couple of years, it tends to result in scenarios where i'm like "dang, I need to make some changes."

Right now it seems like the changes were made before I realized I needed to make some changes...lol. It's funny that, with each job I have had, I grow just that more to be the Man that hopefully is what God wants me to be.

I had made some stupid decisions prior to being with Nina.

Mostly choices made by me being confused. Being un-sure of whom I was, and what I really wanted in life. I knew what I didn't want (settling for something that I was just telling myself was what i wanted instead of KNOWING for sure it's what I want) but, didn't know where I was heading or wanted to head.

So I went on an alcohol binge while I was trying to figure myself out. And during that time I ended up in a scenario where I was considering to want to sleep with someone (Deyanira Zavala), I'm glad I took my own advice and backed away before I ever did anything. After I turned away from wanting to act on impulse, she notified me she was engaged to her boyfriend and would get married with him after he gets out of jail. Good move on my part to back off huh? That moment really was a turning point where I decided to think with the RIGHT HEAD. Respect another Man's woman. Crazy how in this day and age, it's as if, people are like "YOU DIDN'T SLEEP WITH HER DUDE???" They'll be more surprised that I didn't do it, as opposed to hearing if I did.

Now after the Scenario with backing away from Dee, I came accross a pretty cool chick (Tara). She was from Mattoon. The chemistry seemed to be good accross the phone and online. The true test came when I went to visit her (quite the drive). Pause, I think i'm the only guy that I know that is willing to travel great lengths in search for love. The true question is...is that sad?...Un-Pause (lol). So I went to chill with her for 3 nights and 2 days (sounds like a vegas trip right? lol). I totally dug the girl but I came to find out that no matter how much someone will tell you they like you, and they like your presence...eyes dont lie. I knew that my eyes weren't looking at a pair of eyes that saw me the same way.

I think it was the first time in my life where, I was actually not the one pushing the person away. It was an important lesson because I have lived a life where I push away things when I realize they're not meant for me. I'm the one ready to press the "game over" button if it doesn't feel or seem right. To be on the other side of the spectrum, it was a feeling where I didn't feel bad or mad or sad, but just grateful to her for being honest.

I guess I have come across so many lies in the past that, honesty even if it's to push me away, I can only appreciate it. So with that said, thanks for the experience Tara.

***On a side note, I apologize for the long ass blog entry but, I guess i'm just hitting a moment of clarity while i'm typing so please bare with me...lol.

Well after the scenarios with leaving my ex, then talking Dee and being with Tara for that short period of time, as everyone knows my car windows got busted in an act of vandalism by someone. Possibly from 2 of the 3 above, or possibly from someone completely random around the neighborhood?

I think those shattered windows that I saw when I walked up to my car was a symbol of what I had temporarily become.

Just a dude that had been so confused and shattered and basically just left there bruised from the confusion.

It's funny because my dad has never really given me any father to son advice although 2 pieces of information he told me are related to cars. LOL. Your car is a reflection of yourself. And in this sense, I realized what I had been.

The other piece of information that my dad told me when i was a kid is "Treat your car like your woman. You treat it like shit, dont take care of it, dont take it out from time to time, and keep an eye on her and make sure she's ok, she'll leave you stranded in the middle of nowhere" LOL. One of the few times I have gotten advice from my dad but, will never forget it.

So yeah, I was just a messed up dude. So I ended up just secluding myself to a very small group of people from work that I kept in touch with and hung out with. Of course, during this time I was drinking alot.

The funny thing is that, my association to alcohol and people from work, brought tension from a person that doesn't like to see people happy and enjoy themselves and brought drama for me in the workplace.

By this time, I have been so used to bad experiences, I wasn't mad or upset, but rather was kind of waiting for the bad news to hit.

And it did. There was no proof of what I was accused of, so I was fired for "falsification of punch time documentation". LOL. Forgot to punch in and out of lunch when I went on lunch with some co-workers and I got fired the first chance they got.

Management had changed, the company had changed. It's funny because about 3 weeks before I got fired I remember telling my supervisor "hey dude, you know what's one thing I have realized? It's that, I no longer am working for the same company I originally got hired for." His response was "and it will keep on changing E, things will never be how they were again."

So me being gone I think is a result of me no longer being in a department of a company with the same values anymore.

Although similar to the experiences recently prior to that, I learned alot from that job and will always be grateful for their opportunities while I was there.

As like my last beat says in the sample, I was hiding that I was "dying inside"

So now it's March. A couple of months have passed from the girl drama and only a few weeks from the work drama.

My anxiety is finally getting under control. Nina really is a good reminder that I do deserve to be happy.

Looking for a new job and i'm very confident that I can only achieve more at my next job than I did at my last one.

Getting back into making music (as I have made 2 new beats in the past 2 weeks...back on my grind like I used to be)

I'm slowly making those changes needed.

I got my girl some flowers yesterday (even though I mis-understood she wouldn't be home at the time I thought she would...lol. I felt like such a dork saying "i'm at your house with some flowers" and she wasn't there. LOL, It's the thought that counts afterall right? LOL) I'm glad she loved them.

I just hope things get better and my relationship grows to be as good as it currently feels.

I'm just looking forward to what lies ahead.

I'll keep ya'll posted on whatsup later on.

Laters.

-E

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